there is a chance that nothing pains the heart so much as inadequacy. the feeling that despite your best intentions, your highest hopes, your hardest efforts, you stumble, you fall, you give up, and are defeated. how do we see grace when we feel such shame, that the only place we seem capable of looking is down?
hope is found in people. in stories in which God reaches to the least and pulls out the greats - did david not fall? did peter not doubt? but i know the end of their stories, i know what great things they did and the inspiration they've brought to others. i can't see the end of my story. all i can see right now is that which surrounds me, which i cannot seem to recognize right now.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
sixty eight.
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Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Sixty seven.
All over the radio, papers, and online journals we're hearing things about the situation that has re-transpired in the middle east. I heard a quote from someone. He said that peace would be ideal, but they must finish this battle to the bitter end.
Why must the ending to so many a story in our world be bitter? I want to place faith in 2009, that it may bring something new. But this hope is based on one day that marks the change in a number, not a change in our world. So I just hope in tomorrow I guess. That maybe people might be able to see that we're missing what matters far too often.
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Friday, December 26, 2008
Sixty six.
Somedays aren't yours at all,
They come and go as if they're someone else's days
They come and leave you behind someone else's face
And it's harsher than your, colder than yours.
They come in all quiet, sweet up and then leave
And you don't hear a single floor board creak
They're so much stronger than the friends you try to keep by your side.
-somedays, regina spektor
I've been listening to this pretty song lately. Singing a long loudly, listening quietly.
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Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Sixty five.
we wish you a merry christmas
christmas is upon us. it is upon me. in recent years, i have found it more and more important to take time to sit down and just reflect. growing up, it was easy to get distracted by the popularized version of christmas, which had me excited for acquiring new things. while that is a nice part of christmas for sure, it is by no means the most important aspect of it.
jesus.
what child is this?
as a christian this is the reason christmas holds any meaning to me. i respect that there are a large variety of reasons for which this season is important to others. to me, this is it. he is it. what gift should i be more happy to recieve than this? the christ child, God as human, savior. his coming foretold, his role of infinite value, and his beginnings... so humble.
away in a manger...
the complete lack of gandeur in his coming touches my heart so deeply. peace, justice, equity - these things i seek and hope for. these things i find in him. named a king, yet his beginnings are marked with circumstances rich with meaning. his mother and father rejected from lodging and forced into a stable - did they think that they'd failed God because they couldn't bring his son to the world in a better place? the first told are shephards - of a very low class in that society, and yet they matter just as much. That's my favoirte part. And the wise men.
following yonder star
they saw the star. they followed. would i have? perhaps with the wisdom and training they had to know such things. perhaps.
o come, o come, emmanuel
jesus. how wonderful is his name to my ears and my heart. may i never consider myself more worthy than the manger, may i always see the value in the shephards of the world first, may i see the sacrifice and love that was brought into the world with that baby who became a savior, and may i replicate these things in my daily life to others.
so have yourself a merry little christmas now
merry christmas everyone. we are so blessed.
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Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Sixty four.
i find myself cycling through frustrations of late.
it goes: doing well, really happy, get a little down, frustrated at self, over think everything, cool down, feel better, doing well... and so on.
i look at some of the people i admire, and how easy going a lot of them are. i'd like to think i'm like that. the truth is i'm not. i think a lot. i over think. i'm sensitive. i'm insecure. it's better than it used to be. it's nowhere near where it should be. and here comes the frustration - i know what my problem is, at least i think i do, but i seem incapable of helping myself out. nor do i want anyone's help. undesireable emotoin equates to undersirable me in my head. is this truth? no. does that change how i feel? no.
then i think about it, and realize that i assume this one change will make things better. my utopia is me easy going. it seems a little ridiculous. i seem a little ridiculous.
you know what i realized today, other than that it's stupid cold in winnipeg? that the only person who will be around for the whole extent of our lives is ourselves. this is both sobering and encouraging to realize. how many people have gone before me, dealing with so much more than i have to "struggle" through? that means that we're equpit to get through things. others help, but we ultimately make these decisions right? right.
strength for the day. hope for tomorrow. so i'm off to bed.
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Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Monday, December 8, 2008
Sixty three.
I have beautiful friends!
A wonderful family!
An absolutely fantastic boy!
Youth that warm my heart!
It is good to be reminded of such beautiful things.
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Saturday, November 29, 2008
Sixty two.
The tone of this post will be a bit of a contrast from the last, but that's okay.
A few things getting me down of late (though in general i am feeling quite happy).
1. i was listening to the news and heard about the walmart employee who was killed on black friday because a crowd broke down a door and trampled him. i almost started to cry. that sums up a lot of what is wrong with the society we're in. i don't want to get going on some anti-capitalist rant, but it just broke my heart that a sale ended up being more important to people than a man's life. i wonder what kind of things he liked to do with his free time? how is his family doing? was he in love with someone and now that's ruined? i just don't understand.
2. it's honestly been about a month and a half since i've been able to sleep in. i go to bed late and i get up by 8am. my body is so so tired. it's telling me that i'm not being fair, but school and work are just taking priortiy right now. i'm gettng sick. today i worked from 9-3 and right now i'm home and my face is burning but everything else is cold. i feel miserable and sorry for myself and then frustrated becasue i'm being a whiner.
3. my time is just slipping away from me. i have been putting off getting together with beautiful friends whom i adore bceause i just can't go out right now. school is too hectic. it's sad when i have to tell meghan and ashli that i can't hang out for weeks in a row. and i always feel like my time with the boy is so limited. this week i may not see him at all. that's awful. he has been my anchor in all this. makes me feel like i can count on at least one thing to make sense and be dependable.
4. money right now is a bad scene. my parents have been champs in helping me out, but they shouldn't have to be. i've not been very responsible and i need to really not let this happen again.
when all this is done, i will do the following things and they will make me happy:
-i will sleep in. nothing stirs prior to 10am
-i will see the boy. and give him a million hugs.
-i will read my bible.
-i will read books that i am chooosing to read. in bubble baths.
-i will wrap gifts and make them beautiful
-i will write skits for youth
-i will paint things
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Monday, November 24, 2008
Sixty one.
Okay. So I think we spend a lot of time thinking of things that we don't like about ourselves. I don't like this. There hasn't been a person in this world that I've met that I can't see something beautiful in. It's true.
We find what we're looking for. When we have bad days, they often seem to get worse and worse, because we stop looking for beautiful things around us. We limit our sight. But when we consciously think to look for beauty, we will find it. I think that everyone should find bit of their beauty. To look for it every now and then.
So here's something about me that I like.
I really try hard to take notice of things that are easy to overlook, and look for moments in the day that are very small, but are big to me because no one else notices or sees them. Here come examples:
-I like how every time I use a hand blow dryer, I get frustrated at first with how my hands never ever seem to be drying. But there always comes that point where you suddenly notice that they're pretty much done. It's an instant shift. It never seems gradual. It's exciting.
-I love to kick slush off of mud flaps. It's so satisfying.
-I like watching people on the bus. I like seeing them smile to themselves, and hope it's because something in their life is lovely.
-I like to pray for people I see on the street, or at university. Sometimes when I see a girl crying alone, I pray for her and wonder how many people are doing that for me and I don't know it. It's kind of neat. I like that they don't know.
-I get a ridiculous amount of pleasure from listening to a song that fits my mood or thoughts perfectly. It makes me feel connected to bigger things than just myself.
-When I get an outfit just right, I feel really pretty and awesome.
-Cuddling and hand holding are wonderful and make me feel warm inside.
-When one of my jr youth girls calls me about something that's going on in her life, I feel complete. Like I'm doing something right.
-When we have our Christmas tree up, sometimes I'll get out of bed late at night with a blanket and lay on the floor beside it looking up at the lights. It's so beautiful.
-I like it when my brother and I have good conversations.
-...There's so much more I wish I could put down. But this will do for now.
Oh beautiful world. I love you.
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Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Sixty.
sometimes we have to listen.
other times we have to think on our own.
sometimes we have to decide.
sometimes, delaying is the best choice.
sometimes we are alone.
other times we just feel like we are, because we're not hearing what we want to.
sometimes we right, sometimes we're wrong.
all the time we learn.
we learn who our friends are.
we learn what we're made of.
we learn what's important.
and most importantly, we learn about ourselves.
life: it's about trust, it's about grace, it's about risk, it's about love.
it's about knowing when care is at the core of someones words, and dwelling on that before anything else because you trust their friendship. it's about grace for when we are wrong, and grace when we are right. it's about taking risks when we make a decision and don't know the outcome. and it's about love. loving one another and seeing love in one another.
it's just hard sometimes.
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Saturday, November 8, 2008
Fifty nine.
Twenty two.
Today I turned twenty two.
It was a very lovely day. All of it.
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Sunday, November 2, 2008
Fifty eight.
New York and Jesus.
These two things sum up my thoughts right now.
New York.
Yesterday night I returned from a whirlwind adventure in New York, where I attended Mennonite Central Committee's United Nations Office's 13th Annual Student Seminar on Global Food Security. It was super interesting and a great experience all around. I got to lean a lot about a topic I didn't know very much about and also got to see the city and have fun with my friend Jenna. It's a pretty neat place which I plan to return to with more free time and a digital SLR. I came back thrilled with the experience, and definitely thinking really hard about my role as a global citizen and christian when it comes to responding to the various challenges our world faces.
Jesus.
Having been raised in a home devoted to the Christian faith, it struck me and humbled me to realize how little I know Jesus. At one point later in high school, I realized that my faith was based entirely on the convenience of having been raised in that context. After a brief struggle I made the conscious choice to be a person of faith on my own accord. Since then I've had a number of really meaningful experiences and have grown a lot.
But today it hit me how little I've been putting into my relationship with Jesus lately. It broke my heart actually. The realization that my hearts been in the wrong place for a while is both humbling and shameful. I constantly advocate for Christians to not drift into apathy and to consider the meaning of their actions and choices. To not act on Religious Auto-pilot. Then... bam. I realize that I've been drifting that way.
So here we go. Auto-pilot is off. Religion rejected, faith embraced anew, and Jesus and I scheduled for many a friend-date.
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Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Fifty six.
This is a post about sisters. As in, my sister and I.
She moved to Hamilton this year and I miss her. She comes back in December which I am greatly anticipating, but that will still be the longest we've ever been apart aside from the three years that she was alive and I hadn't quite gotten around to that yet.
She's my absolute favorite friend.
Right now I'm listening to the Regina Spektor song that finishes "Prince Caspian". This is probably a bad call because it's making me cry a little. It's a beautiful song.
The Call - Regina Spektor
It started out as a feeling, which then grew into a hope.
Which then turned into a quiet thought, which then turned into a quiet word.
And then that word grew louder and louder until it was a battle cry.
I'll come back when you call me.
No need to say "Goodbye"
Just because everything's changing doesn't mean it's never been this way before.
All you can do is try to know who your friends are as you head off to the war.
Pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light.
You'll come back when it's over.
No need to say "Goodbye".
You'll come back when it's over.
No need to say "Goodbye".
Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too doesn't mean that you have to forget
Let you memories grow stronger and stronger
'Till they're before you eyes.
You'll come back when they call you.
No need to say "Goodbye"
You'll come back when they call you.
No need to say "Goodbye".
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Sunday, October 12, 2008
Fifty five.
This is my problem.
I rarely let God be "enough" for me.
I can say that he's my main man. My number one priority. My everything. And I can want so badly to mean it. Sometimes I really truly do.
Then it hits me: I'm a screw up. I can't keep to what I commit to.
It happens so fast too. I'll be walking along my path, trying to focus my eyes ahead, to fix them upon Jesus, and then bam. I trip. Or maybe it's not that I trip so much, as I look away and I loose my confidence. Like Peter on the water.
It's funny, because I am always critical of Peter when I read that story. Why didn't he just keep looking at Jesus? Seriously - he was WALKING ON WATER. Buddy, wouldn't the time to doubt doing it be before you got out of the boat and STEPPED onto the SEA?!?! Seriously? Seriously. But wait... it's exactly what I do too.
So what makes me look away? Why, when I know in my heart that all but He is temporary, will I choose to try it on my own?
You live, you learn.
Well I feel like I'm doing a lot of living, and not quite as much learning. I need to really understand that He is more than enough for me, and that when I am able to marvel in that fact, truly marvel in it, I will be able to figure out the rest.
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Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Fifty four.
It is time for a post that is neither vain nor involving pictures of me.
Things are really looking up lately. My heart has been feeling very heavy. Shadowed. But the sun is coming out again! The feeling that gives me is one of great joy. Interesting. Joy.
Where does joy fit in here? I went for coffee to talk my parents pastor, Mary, about my dilemma. As we talked it out, I was able to openly admit that I knew what I was supposed to do, but felt so weak. Before we parted, she had this to say to me. "My prayer for you during all of this is that you will experience God's joy through obedience". I didn't think it was very likely to happen at the time.
Here I am. Living in a moment in which God is actively answering someones prayers. Seriously. The shift doesn't have to do with happiness, though that has come along with it. It's more than that. It's my heart.
Beautiful. I feel strong. I feel good.
Joy!
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Monday, September 29, 2008
Fifty three.
Extreme makeover Janessa edition.
So new glasses happened.
And now this.
Before:
and... after!
i just love it.
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Saturday, September 20, 2008
Fifty two.
This week has been awesome.
I got two pairs of glasses, and am entertaining the idea of going to New York at the end of October for a conference (cross fingers!).
But this post is about the glasses. Here they are:
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Friday, September 12, 2008
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Fifty.
I've been a downer lately. I'm also having a hard time talking about it sometimes, because even I tire of what I have to say. Of explaining how I just am incapable of helping myself right now. I'm not helping. I know it. I'm weak. I know it. I have the ability to be stronger, I know it, but I can't seem to find it. I'm asking God for help, but I know almost as well as he that I'm not meaning what I'm saying yet. How much do I have to hurt before I'll mean it? Eghads.
There is hope though, there is always hope. It comes in many different forms. People re-humanizing themselves to me and helping me to realize that we're all capable of error, and we're all capable of learning from and moving away from those errors, and becoming people who are worthy of admiration.
Hope filled moments:
Fall is arriving. The leaves are changing to beautiful. I feel sometimes like they're doing it just for me.
I'm going for a bike ride with Ashli tomorrow. It's supposed to be lovely outside.
God loves me unconditionally. I can't wrap my head around it sometimes. But I can definitely feel grateful beyond words.
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Monday, September 1, 2008
Forty nine.
I'm sitting here thinking about how silly it is that I want to post my emotional discomfort onto a web-page. That said, here it comes.
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Sunday, August 31, 2008
Monday, August 25, 2008
Forty seven.
Old song, can't stop listening to it.
AJS - Park
So breathless, the night carves her airwaves out of these,
And I'm up again tattoos of scars and skin.
So cold, so deep,
I'm twenty feet and sinking faster than the ship I'm in
Useless to jump or swim
I could hold my breath 'till I blow up
And make this all seem real.
No matter how hard I try,
I can't seem to win this stupid game, I appologize,
For keeping you up and wasting all your time.
So I'm stuck with the image of you walking me to my car
And how nice it felt to be alive in someones arms.
Last night felt like the only time that we made sense
And every moment after which -
chalk it up, chalk it up to coincidence.
I could hold my breath 'till I blow up
And make this all seem real.
There's nothing like waking up,
After all of the saddness has been slept off,
And it's just me and you,
Looking at all these things.
How am I supposed to breath?
How am I supposed to breath?
How am I supposed to breath?
How am I supposed to breath?
Lucky for me, we were lying down.
Just from kissing you, I could have passed right out.
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Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Forty six.
I love taking the bus. I enjoy the convenience of a car, but there's something about how the bus slows you down. You can read, which you cannot do (and I hope you don't) while operating your own vehicle. You can think and get distracted, which you can also no do in your car. The list could go on.
I was reading on the bus today. Here are some beautiful quotes that inspired me. You may go ahead and read them and be inspired.
"And so, because the story of Christmas is part of our folklore (we might almost say), we pay more attention to its recognizableness than to the fact that the tiny baby in the manger contained the power which created the galazies and set the stars in their courses."
"...he (Jesus) did not spend time looking for the most qualified people, the most adult. Instead, he chose people who were still childlike enough to leave the known comforts of the daily world, the security of their jobs, their reasonable way of life, to follow him."
-Madeline L'engle
"Walking on Water: Reflections on faith and art"
I love the bus.
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Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Forty five.
it's the small stuff. those are the day makers. at least, they are if you happen to be looking for them.
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Sunday, July 27, 2008
Forty four.
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Sunday, July 20, 2008
Forty three.
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Friday, July 11, 2008
Forty Two.
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Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Forty One.
After reading a book called "The Perks of Being a Wallflower", I've taken to titling certain life moments as "infinite".
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Monday, June 16, 2008
Forty.
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Sunday, June 8, 2008
Thirty nine.
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Saturday, May 31, 2008
Thirty eight.
My heart aches.
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Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Cambodia - Part 12.
How does one sum up a life changing experience?
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Thursday, May 22, 2008
Cambodia (Vietnam) - Part 11.
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Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Cambodia - Part 10.
Ho Chi Minh City, Vietnam.
Am I really here? Apparently. So many things in this trip have been so surreal, it's hard to truly convince myself that I'm sitting where I am. Oh boy.
It's been a packed couple of days. Monday morning I said my tearful goodbyes to my brother's at Samaritan Love Mission, and loaded on to the bus for Siem Riep. We arrived 12 hours later, had a quick dinner and shopping trip and hit the hay. We got up at 4:30 the next morning (ugh...) and booked it over to Ankor Wat to see the sun rise over the temples. Not going to lie, it was one of the most beautiful things I've seen. We ran around the temples for a few hours, and then went back to our guest house to pack up and head back to Phnom Penh. It was a short stay but definitely worth it!
Funny story (maybe most funny to me, so bear with me):
Last night I was exhausted from our long day at Ankor Wat and traveling. We went to our friend Lily's (delightful lady from India) appartment, but I was poor company because of my fatigue. So they sent me to bed. About an hour after I'd fallen asleep, I swore I heard Brianna trying to get into the room and for some reason thought she was locked out.
*Let's just pause for a moment for me to inform you that I sleep with a blindfold on and earplugs. Get that image in your head. Unpause. *
So straight from a dead sleep, I attempt to run across the room with my ear plugs falling out and my blindfold half on. Let's it be known that I am not very coordinated at the best of times, but just after I've woken up is probably what I'd be like if I was intoxicated. Half way to the door, while tipping over in all directions, I realized that Brianna was in the room quietly going through her bags and looking at me veeeery strangely. Oi. Back to bed for me. Even after I had laid down, I had to ask Brianna if that had actually happened, so out of it was I.
Anyways.
We're in Vietnam now. I will give you this bit of advice: if you intend on going to south east asia, go to Cambodia last because otherwise everywhere else is likely to be a let down (at least from my experiences). But, tomorrow we're off to the war remnants museum, and the zoo, and whatever other mischief we can get into.
I'm home in one week. Sigh. I think then I'll be homesick for another home.
OI! NEW PICTURE ALBUM:
Here are the links to all three, the last one being the most recent:
1) http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=116936&l=7d9c2&id=544335600
2) http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=118037&l=a4496&id=544335600
3) http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=119397&l=9643d&id=544335600
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Sunday, May 18, 2008
Cambodia - Part 9
How about those goodbyes?
Kong took us to the beach today, and we watched the sunset all together. Look at us, holding up that sun... cheesy as this is, if it were up to me, I would have held it up a lot longer because the days here have gone by way too fast.
I wont' lie, I know for a fact that I'm going to be really depressed in Hong Kong all alone, and when I get home for a while. I will be so happy to see everyone, dont' get me wrong, but I just can't express how divided my heart now feels...
We're both exhausted and off to bed. Tomorrow we're off to Siem Riep and Ankor Wat, then Wednesday we're Vietnam bound.
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Saturday, May 17, 2008
Cambodia - Part 8.
Saturday... that means... tomorrow is Sunday... that means... Monday I leave Sihannoukville and start travel week with Brianna.
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Thursday, May 15, 2008
Cambodia - Part 7.
Before I continue, let me just say it - we're fine. What a good way to start a post hey?
Brianna and I got into a motto accident today. Well, it was less like an accident and more like the avoidance of an accident, which resulted in our bailing onto the street. Basically someone in front of us went to turn so we started to accelerate but he slammed on his brakes and then so did Brianna, but it was too late so she turned sharply to avoid him and we lost our balance. I was sitting side saddle, like ladies do out here, and totally fell flat on my back with my legs in the air. Please feel free to laugh hard at that image. I know I do every time it comes to me... We were quite the spectacle - two foreign girls bailing on their motto and laughing really loudly (you've read about how they feel about that one...). Goooood times.
Other than some bruising and scrapes, I'm totally fine. Brianna pulled a muscle I think, but she is also okay. We were obviously a bit shaken up after, but we were very lucky that a pair of our brothers that we'd recently split up from were still close enough to hear it, see it, and then come to our aid. They kindly drove us home. Then proceeded to laugh at me every time they saw me for the next two hours. Sigh. Oh well.
This picutre is actually not from the accident, but it shows a nice bruise I aquired when making a tool out of myself on the beach. I tried to sit down in a chair but little did I realize how broken it was and I had a good solid fall on my butt, drawing even more attention to myself by laughing super loudly. Seems to be a pattern...
I have two days left here in Sihannoukville. It makes me sick to think of leaving, but hopefully God will give me the strength to do so. Fortunately I still have one week with Brianna traveling, so I'm very much looking forward to that. It'll just be hard to say goodbye to such beautiful people.
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Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Cambodia - Part 6.
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Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Cambodia - Part 5.
Well well well.
I'm not going to lie, I am so in love with everything around me right now. I'm in Sihanoukville, where I've been since I arrived. On Saturday morning the plan is to leave here adn travel for a week and then I fly home. The thought of saying goodbye Saturday is horrific to me. I want to stay longer. I neeeed to travel around the country for sure, but I can't imagine just leaving after that and not coming back here. I'm seriously thinking about changing my return flight for a few days or a week later than planned, but I'm not sure. Thoughts?
I learned to drive a motto today. ROCK ON. I'll post a viedeo on my facebook eventually, so check it out. It was awesome.
Things here are great. Brianna and I cooked pancakes for our brothers here and they definitely all pretended to like them but really... didn't. Maybe one of them did, but I can't tell. Oh well, now they kind of know how we feel every day... Aha. Although, i dont' mind rice as much as Brianna does.
Funny story: Our friend Kong went to the market to buy us some fruit, because if we went the prices would be muuuuch higher due to our white skin. We asked for 8 bananas, 6 mangoes, and 1kg of rambutam. Well, when we communicated 8 bananas, he misinterpretted it for 8 bunches of bananas... So we ended up with like 80 bananas on hand, when we only wanted 8... we laughed all the way home, while I tried to balance 80 bananas and other fruits on my lap on the back of the motto. Awesome.
Hope all is well with everyone. Later!
(ps. more pictures on facebook:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=116936&l=7d9c2&id=544335600
and
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=118037&l=a4496&id=544335600)
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Saturday, May 10, 2008
Cambodia - Part 4.
The pastor at SLM here brought two friends from Phnom Penh to here (Sihanoukville) to meet Brianna and I - and let me tell you he had a not so hidden agenda of a potential hook up. It was ackward. For Cambodia, these men are incredibly rich. Like, we all climbed into a Lexus SUV rich. Like, work for the government rich. They are also 30 something years old (insert big collar tug here). We ate lunch with them, and then the pastor left with our friend and got us and our brother here to hang out with these men.
Over and out.
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Friday, May 9, 2008
Cambodia - Part 3
Well it has been one working week that I've been in this country now.
There's so much to say and never much time to say it. I shall share the highlights. If you want to see pictures, please look at my facebook album, because I'm having a hard tiem uploading them onto here. The nets a little slow you know.
+ Brianna is pretty much my hero. God is doing good things in her and through her, and it's pretty beautiful to see.
+ Driving here is insane, and hilarious. But now that I've been here a few days, it doesn't seem so scary.
+ All the girls I've met in Cambodia are just charming. They are so sweet and delightful.
+ Jonah, Brianna's "boss" (the pastor here at the school) is trying to set us up with people. At first I thought it was a joke, but then i realized he's kind of serious. Akward...
+ It's hot here all the time.
+ Apparently it's not really common for girls (or guys I think too) to burst out into laughter. Well if you can imagine, it's kind of hard for me to be culturally approp with that one, so you will often have people staring at brianna and i as we drive around on her moto laughing our heads off at something random.
+ Brianna and I had a spontaneous dance part to the backstreet boys in her room the other day. It was a fantastic time.
+ Um.. i might go to vietnam for a few days. YEEEHAWWW!
That's all for now I think. We have internet all weekend so i'll post some good stories when I'm able to think of them.
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Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Cambodia - Part 2
Greetings from the other side of the world (unless, of course, you are Brianna reading this, in which case I say greetings from right beside you).
I made it! After a lot of time on planes and in airports, I finally got here to Cambodia. I arrived in Phnom Penh yesterday and hung out there. I have not been affected to badly by jet lag, which is exciting. The flight from Vancouver to Hong Kong was 13 hours of having the man in front of me reclined as far back as possible, and four crying children surrounding me (one of which considers kicking the back of my chair a air born pass time.
For the record, my feet are enourmous from traveling. It's funny. Check it out. Ummmm actually don't yet because I'm not putting hte picture on until tomorrow when I'm not so tired.
From what I've seen so far, Cambodia is really beautiful. Phnom Penh, not so much, but outside of it is a different story.
Tomorrow morning I start teaching english. You know, I'm not sure it'll be my thing but I'll find that out tomorrow - a little nerve racking, but nothing next to a 13 hour flight.
Anyways, I'm off to bed. Hope you're all well.
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Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Cambodia: Part 1
Deceiving title, I know.
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Monday, April 28, 2008
Thirty seven.
The other day I went to CAA to get travelers cheques, and had a frustrating experience. The girl was cold, not helpful, boarderline rude, and gave me the wrong information which made me have to go back. I was really upset, frustrated, and angry.
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Friday, April 25, 2008
Thirty six.
Stories that explain who I am a bit.
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Thursday, April 24, 2008
Thirty five.
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Monday, April 21, 2008
Thirty four.
Two weeks from now I will be in Cambodia, likely talking a mile a minute with my dear friend Brianna who has been there for several months already.
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Monday, April 14, 2008
Thirty three.
Sometimes people tell me that my sister and I look a lot a like.
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Saturday, April 12, 2008
Thirty two.
I should make a themed blog simply for the silly things I do.
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Saturday, April 5, 2008
Thirty one.
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Saturday, March 29, 2008
Thirty.
Last night Jr Youth's even was a mall hunt.
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Monday, March 24, 2008
Twenty nine.
I have summer on the brain. Maybe it has much to do with my up and coming trip to Cambodia, or because I'm loving the spring time feelings (minus todays snow fall). Here are some summer things I'm looking forward to:
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Saturday, March 22, 2008
Twenty eight.
Stories that explain who I am a bit.
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Friday, March 21, 2008
Twenty seven.
- I was comforted by the fact that I have not become emotionless to this Easter weekend, and to the meaning it has for me. The tears I shed this morning and the overwhelming feelings that were present were accompanied by a refreshing understanding of the sacrifice that has guided my life's purpose.
- I was reminded of the kind of fear I currently have of going to my own church. The brief moments that I was there this morning dropping off something instilled in me an unrest that continues to sit in me. We'll tackle that later.
- Humility. I am being called to greater humility, from the inside out. I have very selfish thoughts and actions. In particular, I've come to realize that I am becoming very selfish in conversations with others. This bothers me.
- In particular, it was the 9th station that struck me the most. It used Isaiah 53:7-9 (you can look it up if you so desire) and the guided prayer (not something I'm usually a fan of, but liked in this case) read:
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Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Twenty five.
Stories that explain who I am a bit.
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Saturday, March 15, 2008
Twenty four.
Transitions.
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Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Twenty three.
So sick right now.
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