fall back down.

there is a lot of change happening around me, and in me.

there are the physical reminders of change, fall is here and it's beautiful. october has been a wonderful month, almost a second summer. the days have been full of sunshine, warmth, and vibrant colors. but now the leaves have almost all fallen, and my manitoban world prepares itself for winter. the death of my grandpa this summer was particularly hard, and fall has reminded me of the natural cycle of life and i take comfort in that. fall will always come, and then winter. but it's not bad. just sad sometimes.

do you know what is silly? that i noticed when someone from my past took me off their facebook friends list. i noticed pretty quickly to be honest. some books are closing and others are opening. i'm discovering new friends, and new ways of being with friends who've been around for years. in really good ways. so goodbyes are okay too, whether we have a say or not.

my life has changed. i am married, and i love it. i love andrew a lot, and could not have asked for anything more. i am preparing for an interview tomorrow for a new job that means new and scary changes.