better after.

something more cheerful?

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you are welcome.

my wandering.

i was "given" this verse yesterday. and i find it fitting (this person knew who they were writing to, this i know).

one of the hardest things i have ever had to do is admit weakness and rely on others. right now i feel like i have to do that every day.

Lamentaions 3: 19-23
¹⁹ I remember my affliction and my wandering,
the bitterness and the gall.
²⁰ I well remember them,
and my soul is downcast within me.
²¹ Yet this I call to mind
and therefore I have hope:

²² Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
²³ They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
²⁴ I say to myself, “The LORD is my portion;
therefore I will wait for him.”

less to be consoled.

lately i've been meditating on song lyrics a lot. i've always had a particular love of music of all kinds.

the song i've been listening to the most is "peace prayer" as sung by steve bell. the lyrics are beautiful, simple and rich with meaning. i find them soothing. i'm holding on to a lot of things right now, some good and some not good. i need to step back. this is a song of transformation and letting go of self.

Lord make me a means of Your Peace
Where there’s hatred grown
Let me sow Your love
Where there’s injury Lord
Let forgiveness be my sword
Lord make me a means of Your Peace

Lord make me a means of Your Peace
When there’s sadness here
Let me sow Your joy
When the darkness nears
May Your light dispel our fears
Lord make me a means of Your Peace

Lord grant me to seek and to share
Less to be consoled
Than to help console
Less be understood
Than to understand Your good
Lord make me a means of Your Peace

Lord grant me to seek and to share
To forgive in thee
You’ve forgiven me
For to die in thee
Is eternal life to me
Lord make me a means of Your Peace